MY CONVERSATION WITH GOD (PART I)

So here I am before His presence trying to rationalize this moment but it seems like a fruitless exercise so I just going to go along with it anyway.
-First of all, Why am I here talking to You?
-PERHAPS YOU MAY HAVE SOME QUESTIONS YOU WOULD LIKE TO ASK.
-You stand correctly, but before I start with the interview, I would like to be able
to express myself and speak my mind.
-PROCEED.
-I think this whole human race experiment is not working really well. I mean, look at
us. We do not function logically. What I mean is we behave in a way that does not
make any sense at all. We, as humans, are supposed to do good things and strive for
making everything better instead of destroying ourselves and our planet.
Am I right?
-DO YOU THINK THERE IS NO HOPE FOR HUMANITY?
-Honestly I do not think there is, for I have seen so far.
-YOU REMIND ME OF JEAN PAUL A BIT, BUT YOUR CONCERNS ARE AUTHENTIC.
SINCE HUMAN BEINGS HAVE THE CHOICE TO DO GOOD OR TO DO EVIL THERE IS ALWAYS A
GLIMPSE OF HOPE.
-Yes. But the bad outweighs the good so much. It is hard to imagine a turn around
at this stage in our history. Do not get me wrong, I think there is many wonderful
things and many wonderful people who could make You proud, but it seems so little
in comparison with the majority making the wrong choices.
-HAVE YOU READ THE MANUAL?
-Which one?
There are many in several languages.
-YOU WILL FIND THAT ALL OF THEM REVEAL THE REAL NATURE OF MEN. HUMANS TEND TO FORGET
TO READ THE FINE PRINT SOMETIMES.
-We have forgotten the manual and decided that we know better. That maybe is one of
the reasons we are in this mess.
-IT WAS MEANT TO HELP, NOT TO DICTATE; TO GUIDE, NOT TO DECIDE. SO IN THIS MANNER
NOBODY WOULD PRETEND TO HOLD THE ABSOLUTE TRUTH.
-It makes sense. But still, we have decided we know You better and therefore, we
hold a poor record about it.
-REMEMBER IT IS NOT ABOUT ME. I AM WHO I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE.
IT IS ABOUT WHICH SIDE YOU CHOOSE TO STAND.
-So are You telling me to hell with everybody as long I am fine?
Anyway just to let You know, I am more concern about this life that my afterlife.
I want to feel this life is worth of living without having to worry about later.
-FIRST, YOU ARE NOT TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE FATE OF OTHERS.
SECOND, IF THIS LIFE IS WHAT CONCERNS YOU, DO AS YOU BELIEVE IS RIGHT.
-Ahhhhh....Now I think I begin to understand....

PERHAPS SOME DAY.........

Perhaps some day I will understand what happened
Or maybe I will never find out the truth;
Perhaps my heart do not care anymore
About things that are buried deep into my soul.

Perhaps it was a chest that I myself opened
Not knowing the reasons , not being a sleuth,
So I let all my miserable demons run galore
And maybe that is why my spirit is without console.

Perhaps all was written for the best
So you and I could escape to the sun,
Perhaps our lives do not meet at the end
like a couple of bohemians drunk with love.

Perhaps we did not measure for the quest
And gave up to the test before it began,
Maybe it was best to end instead of pretend.
But it was real, I know, it was.... our love...

SIENDO...EXISTIENDO....VIVIENDO....PENSANDO...

No creo saber los misterios de la vida,
Ni me imagino el dolor de todos los desamparados;
Pero siento mi alma gritar desde mi adentro
Cuando me detengo a contemplar nuestra existencia.

Que ejemplo de imperfección somos como raza mal vivida,
Que lástima damos, parecemos seres con corazones parados
Que ya no sentimos más el amor. Somos el epicentro
De todo el desastre que ha creado nuestra malevolencia.

Y pensar que fuimos diseñados con toda la habilidad
Para hacer lo bueno; pero nuestro libre albedrío
Es el timón de nuestra obra y hechura.
Al fin y al cabo miseria será lo que cosecharemos.

Me da pesar al contemplar nuestra fragilidad
Como seres humanos. Hemos fallado con algarabillo
Y no creo (quizás pesimista) que halla compostura.
Solo en la utopía de mi deseo es que nos amaremos.